Afternoon at house. Summer's really in, it's freakin' hot in my room. School's officially out. Yesterday dropped of my last paper for a class. This semester was really a toxic one, actually my life as a whole. Dealt with school, work, ministry plus emotional ups and downs. Thank God it's over.

I've been praying together with my D-group my desire to do freelance work this summer now that I have more free time. And praise God, as of the moment I have five potential projects with three already in progress. Thank You, Lord. You are so good to me.

I remember my conversations with Kuya Sur back then about walking in faith. "How does the secure walk in faith?" And I remember what we came up with - contentment. Simple yet profound. But still did not keep me from being selfishly ambitious. Though these experiences for the past semesters have NOT been all bad. There are good days and bad days to learn from. I am very grateful for He's patience and love, that even though some people would eventually give up on you (which I totally understand because they are also human like me) He is still there... still.

Still

Hide me now | Under your wings | Cover me | within your mighty hand

[+] When the oceans rise and thunders roar | I will soar with you above the storm | Father you are king over the flood | I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul | In Christ alone | Know his power | In quietness and trust

[Classmates: Erene, me and Mutya]

Last night after class. Somehow by some freak coincidence we decided to wear the same color at the same time. Pink was really the color of the day at school. That's me not making pa-cute, but I was in a hurry because I can see my classmates already leaving for our after sem fellowship. I was like "hey wait for me!"


[L-R: Kuya Rey, me, Kuya Ron (unseen: Kuya Manny), Kuya Alex & wife, Kuya Jae & Kuya Jun]

After sem dinner fellowship with OT class at Dampa, Macapagal Ave.

My Favorite Things #7 - Interview with God Movies

www.InterviewWithGod.com

I just remembered the website called Interview with God which features inspiring presentations about God and life. I just discovered that there are more online movies made after that. A fusion of words and breath-taking pictures compose the movie's inspiring messages that gives it's audience peace and faith. Notable movie's are "Interview with God 1" and "Forgiven". A good share, and it's free. You can also listen to Rebecca Robert's soothing piano masterpieces featured in the movies.

My Favorite Things #6 - Happy Days - Filipino pop icon tees, Red Lane, G4 (Thanks Erene!)
My Favorite Things #5 - The Big Chill - Fruit Shakes, watermelon shake for hot summer
My Favorite Things #4 - She's the Man - Amanda Bynes movie
My Favorite Things #3 - Yellow Cab Pizza's Pistachio Ice Cream
My Favorite Things #2 - Chronicles of Narnia
My Favorite Things #1 - Demitri Martin

Interview with God

I dreamed I had an interview with God.

"So you would like to interview me?" God asked.

"If you have the time" I said.

God smiled. "My time is eternity."
"What questions do you have in mind for me?"

"What surprises you most about humankind?"

God answered...
"That they get bored with childhood,
they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again."

"That they lose their health to make money...
and then lose their money to restore their health."

"That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future."

"That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived."

God's hand took mine
and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons
you want your children to learn?"

"To learn they cannot make anyone
love them. All they can do
is let themselves be loved."

"To learn that it is not good
to compare themselves to others."

"To learn to forgive
by practicing forgiveness."

"To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those they love,
and it can take many years to heal them."

"To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least."

"To learn that there are people
who love them dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings."

"To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently."

"To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves."

"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.

"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
"Just know that I am here... always."

-author unknown

Though the cherry trees don't blossom
and the strawberries don't ripen,
Though the apples are worm-eaten
and the wheat fields stunted,
Though the sheep pens are sheepless
and the cattle barns empty,
I'm singing joyful praise to GOD.
I'm turning cartwheels of joy to my Savior God.

- Habakkuk 3:17-18 (The Message)

Now that's a challenge. Keeping your mouth shut while waiting for God's visitation is one thing. But "turning cartwheels of joy" to God? Lord please teach me this virtue.

This is a facial representation of what I think about the day today and you might know what.

We are Pentecostals - Spirit-filled believers who believes in the active part of the Holy Spirit in empowering His people. But yet how come we supress the workings of the Holy Spirit? How dare we put Him in a man-made box as if He could be tamed?! In our worship we have moved away from His sovereign leading to less than five minutes of Spirit-time or much worse - none at all. We pray without a clear purpose that is allowing God to work in His omnipotence His plans for world redemption. We treat God as a "celestial vending machine" whom we kick if He doesn't give out. Why do we pray? We are worse than robots in a sense that robots never grow tired of their task. Look at us. Less than an hour of keeping watch at our Master and our legs grow restless like a hot dog. Let us pray that we will not fall into temptation. True, how can one pray with much fervor and passion if one is not empowered to believe, to be certain of what is invisible? God's Spirit is not tame, my brothers, He is wild but good. We speak of conquests, revivals, and transformations which will never happen if we do not yield ourselves - broken vessels, willing vessels to be used in His kingdom. There's a growing trend of spiritual apathy in the Church today. We are failing to step up as a Body, a Nation whom God has chosen to become the light into darkness. I pray that when He returns we will not be caught naked - lazy and shameful servants engrossed with self-serving and short-sighted motives. Nevertheless, come Lord Jesus.

Woke up 11AM today. After lunch I went to Makati to pick up Weng's camera. After yesterday's negotiation when to get the memory card, much to her kind annoyance because I was very 'eager' to see the pictures of our organized event. I planned on shopping today at Glorietta. It's whole day sale until tomorrow. Just then, I realized, I left my credit card at home. An engot moment there. I didn't bring any cash with me. So I was only able to buy 2 shirts from Happy Days printed "Pinoy Rock" and "Juan dela Cruz Band".

Prayer meeting this evening. For sometime now, I've been almost grew cold of our prayer meetings. Short worship, group by twos and pray. Next week same. Next week still the same. I've been thirsting for a new wine from God. And tonight He made it so...

Waiting On You Again

by Casey Corum & Brent Helming
Vineyard Music "Dwell"

I've been down this road so many times before | And here I am on this road again | I'm asking for mercy in spite of my sin | Oh Lord, You are the only One who loves me this way

[+] Here I am | Here I am | Waiting on You again | Waiting on You again

Lord, Your faithful love is watching over me | Though I often try and turn the other way | But now I come in surrender to Your unchanging grace | Oh Lord, You are the only One who loves me this way

Watched movie today at Glorietta. Saw She's The Man starring Amanda Bynes from Nickelodeon. This movie is a modern adaptation of the comedy Twelfth Night by William Shakespeare. Despite it's teeny movie style, movie was real fun and entertaining. Had been anticipating it after I saw it's trailer and back in highschool I played Sebastian in the play.