I'm in school now. I'm finished with my class..

Where can I go
Where my heart's thought is valid?
I am broken
Tasting my own bittersweet medicine.

Am I entitled to be happy?
Am I entitled not to be alone?
I am facing a cold stone wall
Whispering thoughts my mind can't conceive.

I buried myself in words
Written by people enticed with themselves
In this hollow cold space
Hearing dirges I can only hear.

My dear traveller, I wish you can feel my innermost being
Feel the deep cut thru my chest
I have proven silver cannot satisfy
The deepest tragedies of my heart.

Still awake doing nothing. In front of the PC. Waiting for something (to happen) I do not know. I want to sleep, but as if my day is not yet satisfactory. Wanting to do something but today I choose not to. Listening to iTunes. Spent sometime creating ideas for ministry. My head is wasted. Tomorrow my body will follow. Need to go to class by 9.

After Carecell last Saturday at Ice Monster in Banawe Avenue. We held our Carecell at Zarah, Justin & Doris' house.

Billy Graham Will Do His Last Crusade

"People ask me if I fear death. I don't," Graham said at the press conference. "I look forward to death with great anticipation, to meeting God face to face."

Wait In Vain

What's up with me tonight? I'm in a senti-mode right now...

Wait In Vain
Annie Lennox

+ From the very first time I rest my eyes on you | My heart said follow through | But I know now that I'm way down on your line | But the waiting feeling's fine

+ So don't treat me like a puppet on a string | Because I know how to do my thing | Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb | I wanna know when you're gonna come

+ You see, I don't wanna wait in vain for your love | 'Cause summer is here and I'm still waiting there | Winter is here and I'm still waiting there

+ Like I said, it's been three years since I'm knocking on your door | And still I can knock some more | Is it crazy look, I wanna know now | For I to knock some more?

+ In life I know that there is lots of grief | But your love is my relief | Tears in my eyes burn | While I'm waiting for my turn

What's on my playlist tonight:
+ Wait in Vain - Annie Lennox
+ She Loved Me - Sarah McLachlan
+ Never Fall in Love Again - Burt Bacharach
+ Superstar - The Carpenters
+ Say You Love Me - Patti Austin
+ Solitaire - Neil Sedaka
+ Broken - Robert Downey Jr.
+ Summer Breeze - Seals and Croft
+ A Song for You - The Carpenters
+ Hurting Each Other - The Carpenters
+ Toledo - Elvis Costello

When She Loved Me

This was the song Jessie the Cowgirl sang in Toy Story 2 when she reminisced the good times she had with her person. When she was the apple of her person's eye. It's heartbreaking watching this part of the movie.

When She Loved Me
Sarah McLachlan

+ When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful | Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart | And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears | And when she was happy, so was I, when she loved me.

+ Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all | Just she and I together, like it was meant to be | And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her | And I knew that she loved me.

+ So the years went by, I stayed the same | And she began to drift away, I was left alone | Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "I will always love you."
+ Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way | She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do | Like she loved me, when she loved me

+ When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful | Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart | When she loved me.

Christ shield me today
against poison, against burning,
against drowning, against wounding,
So that there may come to me abundance of reward:
Christ with me,
Christ before me,
Christ behind me,
Christ on my right,
Christ of my left,
Christ when I lie,
Christ when I sit down,
Christ when I arise,
Christ in quiet,
Christ in danger,
Christ in the heart of every man who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks of me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.

- Saint Patrick of Ireland
From Jesus Freaks Volume II

Got Jesus Freaks 2: Stories of Revolutionaries who Changed the World - Fearing God not Man. Thanks Brznf! A true dependable Jesus Freak.

I attended chapel service today. It's good to be ministered to for a change. Worship was great. We sang 'To The Ends of The Earth.' Dr. Tappeiner spoke about God's message on our school's divine purpose on earth. That we must become ourselves 'tools of transformation' in order to transform others.


I found the book today in Glorietta.

Hotel Rwanda

Today I had one-hour class in Theological Research in school. Despite its 3rd week of meeting, it was my first time to attend this class due to work. Our professor was a Russian named Ms. Brylko, also a former student of ASCM. After class I stayed up until 4PM doing VFT work with free wireless internet in the library. :)


After school I decided to go to Robinsons Place to watch a movie. Then I saw Hotel Rwanda. The movie is about the true story of man named Paul Rusesabagina who became a hero during the Rwandan genocide in 1994. I wasn't even aware that this happened years back. The movie is very good. My latest favorite. A story of initiative, love and humanity. Don Cheadle and Sophie Okonedo's performances are remarkable. Now I want to get the book about it.