Lord, what's your will for me today? For past weeks I've been rolling along with the tides. Nothing new for a spiritual ADD like me. At work, I'm getting the laid off. Bosses are gone for 3 months. Projects almost done. I am very glad to contribute my God-given abilities. I am given an unofficial rest period. At school, academics are finally catching up with me. Accelerating. If I don't keep up my pace, I will fall behind studies. Me & my friends don't spend much time anymore, we have different scheds. There was a time in a moment of loneliness, amidst crowds, I went to the prayer room and just stay there, telling God my mind.
Lord, what do you want me to do? I need Your instruction. Thank You for speaking to me in Your Word. Those words of comfort and encouragement that You see me. Thank You because you know what I need.
Nothing Without You
Bebo Norman
Take these hands and lift them up | For I have not the strength to praise You near enough | For I have nothing, I have nothing without You | Take my voice and pour it out | Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found | For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
[+] All my soul needs is all Your love to cover me | So all the world will see that I have nothing | But I love You with all my heart | With all my soul | With all my mind | with all the strength that I can find
Take my body and build it up | May it be broken as an offering of love | For I have nothing, I have nothing without You
Take my time here on this earth and let it glorify all that You are worth | For I am nothing, I am nothing without You
The Mind of the Melancholeric Man: Musings on Life and Ministry by Patrick Tan
Did not go to work today. I wasn't able to wake up. My mom tried to wake me up, but I "told" her I have no work and my class is later in afternoon. Sometimes I do that - talking unknowingliy. Weird. Coincidentaly, the BOH people are out of office. They are all in the warehouse checking out glitches on the new printed books.
Wednesday. Haven't blogged for a week. Lazy, busy. Today is class day. I have two 3-hour classes, one in the morning another in the evening. Morning class was Gospel to Acts. It was a surprise that our dean Dr. Tappeiner sat in our discussion which made me a little intimated so I didn't speak much. I remember the first time I spoke in this class my professor already corrected my wrong use of word. Bloopers. But today the class went well. It's like everyone is on their toes. Dr. T. is a prophet, as he defines his calling, and I think he is.
After class, I went to the prayer room to pray... but was too sleepy 'cause I lacked sleep so I slept for a while on the carpet inside an air-conditioned prayer room. I have so much to tell God. I have to meet Him. After sometime, I went down to the library to do my assignments for tomorrow and next week.
5PM was our Worship and Music class. This was our first class. Our prof missed our first two classes because she went to States. Class was OK. She asked each one of us to introduce our partner and sing their favorite worship song.
After class, I went to the prayer room to pray... but was too sleepy 'cause I lacked sleep so I slept for a while on the carpet inside an air-conditioned prayer room. I have so much to tell God. I have to meet Him. After sometime, I went down to the library to do my assignments for tomorrow and next week.
5PM was our Worship and Music class. This was our first class. Our prof missed our first two classes because she went to States. Class was OK. She asked each one of us to introduce our partner and sing their favorite worship song.
Indescribable
From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea | Creation's revealing Your majesty | From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring | Every creature unique in the song that it sings | All exclaiming...
[+] "Indescribable! Uncontainable!" | You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name | You are amazing God! | All powerful! Untamable! | Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim | You are amazing God!
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go | Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow | Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light | Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night | None can fathom
[+] Incomparable! Unchangeable! | You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same! | You are amazing God!
Here at school again just like my last post. During Wednesdays, I have a 3-hour class in the morning and then 3 hour class in the evening. So I have 5 hours of free time, just lounging here in the library, doing my assignments - because there is no other time to do it, 'cause I'm such a busybody :) I thought I would be late this morning. Strangely I woke up 6 in the morning, like I was ready to go to school. I believe He woke me up, and thankfully I was able to spend some God-time in the morning. I've been a bad person for the past weeks. I was lagging on my devotion. I'm growing short of patience. And I was busy, busy, busy. But thankfully I am back. Was also able to spend lots of God-time after morning class. I missed the prayer room in school, a place where I can just confine myself with God... Anyway I'll continue blogging later. Back to my reading requirements.
You Are Cyclops
Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.
Power: force beams from your eyes
Which of the X-Men Are You?
You must teach what is in accord with sound doctrine. Teach the older men to be temperate, worthy of respect, self-controlled, and sound in faith, in love and in endurance.
Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.
Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled. In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us.
Where are the older men and older women of our church who will set an example for the younger generation how to live life, people who understand the value of teaching young people what they know, concerned with the welfare of their spirituality? May it be one day, Lord that when I become older that I would become someone who would still be involved in shaping the minds of the youth. So they will know and love you and be part of a family to be loved and cherished.
Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.
Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled. In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us.
Titus 2
Where are the older men and older women of our church who will set an example for the younger generation how to live life, people who understand the value of teaching young people what they know, concerned with the welfare of their spirituality? May it be one day, Lord that when I become older that I would become someone who would still be involved in shaping the minds of the youth. So they will know and love you and be part of a family to be loved and cherished.
30 minutes to my next subject after 5 hours of break. I'm here in the library of ASCM doing reading assignments already. And school season has just began. I haven't been blogging lately because of lots of things to do. Life is an endless rollercoaster. I'm a struggling son trying to please his parents while doing his vocation. Today is a season of uprooting deep roots of bitterness in relationships. There are times when you realize that God makes you confront your unfinished businesses and you realize you are cornered, no way to escape. Those are the times when you have to come clean, surrender and let God be God. Thank God for He is full of mercy. Vocation-wise, I am faced with opportunities to serve Him to the fullest. My current unofficial motto is "impact as many people as possible through my God-given abilities." Others call it "ambition," though such sense of excellence and advancement is not totally evil. Having said that I leave God to be the sole furnace of my thoughts, motives and deeds. And may I please Him more and more each day.
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