The Mind of the Melancholeric Man: Musings on Life and Ministry by Patrick Tan
Went to Cartimar this afternoon for some fish-shopping. I'm slowly rebuilding my reef aquarium. It was very traffic in Cartimar, luckily we got a parking space immediately after arriving. I was also on the hunt for Christmas ponsettias, which I theorize would cost cheaper since Christmas day is over, but when we got to the plant shop there was not a single ponsettia to be found! I theorize they purposely kept it because it is already out of season.
I've been also on the hunt for other Christmas stuff or items that were in sale. I got a camping tent for P999.00. The tent occupies 4 persons; good for camping. I'm still looking for a cheap capiz parol. Also got a microwave oven on sale at P2500.
Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. Probably I'll fill up my reef tank. Eat my fill at noche buena.. I'm doing baked potatoes hopefully.
I've been also on the hunt for other Christmas stuff or items that were in sale. I got a camping tent for P999.00. The tent occupies 4 persons; good for camping. I'm still looking for a cheap capiz parol. Also got a microwave oven on sale at P2500.
Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. Probably I'll fill up my reef tank. Eat my fill at noche buena.. I'm doing baked potatoes hopefully.
I decided to wake up earlier - 10AM.. A great accomplishment for a sluggish sleepyhead. Last night we moved our bed to another position that I can place my stuff beside my bed, including my alarm clock. But even when the alarm clock was right beside my ear, I was not awaken by the clock but a houseperson saying that the alarm clock is ringing. I'm bad at waking through alarms.
I found my dad talking on the phone with pastor. Another issue in the church. When will this stop? Later I'll be going to church to practice for Sunday worship.
These are the times when I ask myself, "Where is the church headed?" I feel pointless, my work senseless and no direction to go to. Last night my family were talking about moving church. It seems hopeless and stubborn. I am an objective person. A person who does things for a purpose, for a goal. My motivation is driven by carefully laid-out and God-inquired plans. When there is no vision the people scatter. I feel like a sheep without a shepherd. Three years in the youth ministry proved to be a great experience... but how long can I hold up? I've been inquiring to the Lord of my struggles. What is in store for 2005? I am growing weary.
I found my dad talking on the phone with pastor. Another issue in the church. When will this stop? Later I'll be going to church to practice for Sunday worship.
These are the times when I ask myself, "Where is the church headed?" I feel pointless, my work senseless and no direction to go to. Last night my family were talking about moving church. It seems hopeless and stubborn. I am an objective person. A person who does things for a purpose, for a goal. My motivation is driven by carefully laid-out and God-inquired plans. When there is no vision the people scatter. I feel like a sheep without a shepherd. Three years in the youth ministry proved to be a great experience... but how long can I hold up? I've been inquiring to the Lord of my struggles. What is in store for 2005? I am growing weary.
Wake Up Call
Is this all there is? Is this what God has in store for his people? I believe that there is much in store for this people of God. I long for the day when our people will be active participants of the Word. People would never have to leave to look for greener pastures because the Church gives them sustenance. Vision is the key in order that we achieve this plight - a vision as clear and as vibrant as a flowing mountain stream. Vision that will move heart and minds towards one purpose, one goal – a body united in Christ.
We ought to have an environment where a person can exercise his faith, his love for other people, his leadership, and or prayerfulness. And that environment is to be provided non-other that Church. The Church is the hope of the world today and church leaders ought to spur the Church towards its mission – to reach out to the hopeless world.
We are accountable my friends, accountable to our weaker brothers and ultimately we will answer to God when that Day comes. I pray that in this time God will bring revival to us while my strength is still young. As the Scriptures say, “Remember thy Creator in the days of thy youth.” I fervently long to see that day.
We ought to have an environment where a person can exercise his faith, his love for other people, his leadership, and or prayerfulness. And that environment is to be provided non-other that Church. The Church is the hope of the world today and church leaders ought to spur the Church towards its mission – to reach out to the hopeless world.
We are accountable my friends, accountable to our weaker brothers and ultimately we will answer to God when that Day comes. I pray that in this time God will bring revival to us while my strength is still young. As the Scriptures say, “Remember thy Creator in the days of thy youth.” I fervently long to see that day.
It's two days after Christmas. Still nothing to do. My banaue trip has been cancelled due to lack of people who will go with me. I don't like it when people say they will come with you and the next thing they won't. It dampens my adventurer spirit.
Christmas day wasn't exciting either. We had our grandparent's family reunion at our house. Not all my cousins came. Things are very different now, when the family has grown older. I miss my childhood Christmas. When everybody is there, gifts, noche buena and the happiness of being togeter. Now it's different. My grandma is no longer here, my grandfather is sick and unable to speak and understand. Each of my mother's siblings already lived on far places. Each cousins have grown up and grown cold with each other. I remember I have two cousins who were nearly as same age as me and we get along together when we were kids. But after they moved to another place and seldom see them, I became estranged to them. Lots of things have changed, and I long for those old moments to return. But I guess it's already impossible. Just take it like a grown man.
God I really miss those times. I hope that when I have my own family, we will have our own get together with my parents and brother's family, together with my friends' families.
Christmas day wasn't exciting either. We had our grandparent's family reunion at our house. Not all my cousins came. Things are very different now, when the family has grown older. I miss my childhood Christmas. When everybody is there, gifts, noche buena and the happiness of being togeter. Now it's different. My grandma is no longer here, my grandfather is sick and unable to speak and understand. Each of my mother's siblings already lived on far places. Each cousins have grown up and grown cold with each other. I remember I have two cousins who were nearly as same age as me and we get along together when we were kids. But after they moved to another place and seldom see them, I became estranged to them. Lots of things have changed, and I long for those old moments to return. But I guess it's already impossible. Just take it like a grown man.
God I really miss those times. I hope that when I have my own family, we will have our own get together with my parents and brother's family, together with my friends' families.
Nothing to do today.. woke up at noon in time for lunch. My works are done and one pending. Unmotivating to do because this client is stingy while being overly critic. We got some visitors today - My dad's cousin and his two aunties. I haven't seen them for some time. Got to chat with some long lost friends.
Christmas is near.
Today was our Christmas service at church. The youth had prepared two Christmas presentations. One was a human video entitled 'The Bridge' which I got from Master's Commission team when I was in AIYS. The church was full. I led worship. I introduced a song called 'In The Secret', which to some may sound familiar because though a Christian song, it was once a soundtrack of a teeny movie called 'She's All That' which stars Rachel Leigh Cook.
I have been sleeping too late because of the new DSL and the laptop. That's why also lately I'm having pimples. I plan to visit a dermatologist hopefully. Still tired from last two week's schedule. And it seems things kept coming up. I'm not spared from work even in Christmas season... In the States, instead of calling this season 'Christmas' they call it 'Holiday' season. True, as pastor had preached, the world has been putting Jesus in the back seat of Christmas.
After Christmas I'm planning to go back to Banaue. Though I'm not sure because from 8 people who would come with me we decreased to only three. I don't like it when people assume somethings which are not... Haay.
As time goes by, I'm realizing I'm slowly becoming less of the free, adventurous person I once was. They're have been a lot of stuff that keeps me from soaring free.. each one weighing you down.. work, commitments, responsibilities, financial responsibilites, and people.. I guess my social circle is smaller than an average person cause I cannot handle too much acquaintances.
Today was our Christmas service at church. The youth had prepared two Christmas presentations. One was a human video entitled 'The Bridge' which I got from Master's Commission team when I was in AIYS. The church was full. I led worship. I introduced a song called 'In The Secret', which to some may sound familiar because though a Christian song, it was once a soundtrack of a teeny movie called 'She's All That' which stars Rachel Leigh Cook.
I have been sleeping too late because of the new DSL and the laptop. That's why also lately I'm having pimples. I plan to visit a dermatologist hopefully. Still tired from last two week's schedule. And it seems things kept coming up. I'm not spared from work even in Christmas season... In the States, instead of calling this season 'Christmas' they call it 'Holiday' season. True, as pastor had preached, the world has been putting Jesus in the back seat of Christmas.
After Christmas I'm planning to go back to Banaue. Though I'm not sure because from 8 people who would come with me we decreased to only three. I don't like it when people assume somethings which are not... Haay.
As time goes by, I'm realizing I'm slowly becoming less of the free, adventurous person I once was. They're have been a lot of stuff that keeps me from soaring free.. each one weighing you down.. work, commitments, responsibilities, financial responsibilites, and people.. I guess my social circle is smaller than an average person cause I cannot handle too much acquaintances.
'Da King' is Dead
It was a silent yet shocking news. FPJ is dead. The King of Philippine action movies loses to his final battle with sudden stroke. When he was in intensive care somehow I figured that there's a possibility that he will not make it. Even at this early stage in intensive care, the media is already swarming about the issue - as if he is already dead. Infomercial here and there. I hope that wasn't the factor that cut through FPJ's last breaths.
I was listening to news in the car this afternoon and still the main news for the day was FPJ. There was one incident where some of FPJ's supporters during election destroyed the flowers sent by the administration. I laughed when someone remarked from FPJ's camp (an old woman) saying that it was PGMA's fault why FPJ died and they will take revenge.. I mean, the man died on natural cause. Why blame it to the president.
FPJ's impact to Philippine society is undoubtedly huge. The defender of the poor, the oppressed. Fighting with super quick punches and miraculously misses gunshots, now is put to rest.
I was listening to news in the car this afternoon and still the main news for the day was FPJ. There was one incident where some of FPJ's supporters during election destroyed the flowers sent by the administration. I laughed when someone remarked from FPJ's camp (an old woman) saying that it was PGMA's fault why FPJ died and they will take revenge.. I mean, the man died on natural cause. Why blame it to the president.
FPJ's impact to Philippine society is undoubtedly huge. The defender of the poor, the oppressed. Fighting with super quick punches and miraculously misses gunshots, now is put to rest.
Today I woke up from a very angry text from my project manager. I'm delayed of work. I was supposed to give it last night, but after she bid to sleep, I did also. I still haven't regained my lack of sleep from last week. Last week was one of the busiest week of the year. I juggled between school, work and ministry.. I preached that Sunday, and by the grace of God it went well.
Last week I went to two Christmas parties. One was our church's Christmas party and the other was our young people's Christmas party. Of course, the youth Christmas party rocked.
Today, one of my short-term goals had come to pass. I got a new laptop. I've been hoping and confessing it for months, that I will buy one. I got an ASUS A2 laptop that almost performs like my desktop PC. I bought it because I'm a very mobile person. I also had DSL just last week. That was because, we needed a phone line and before when I get online, the phone line is always busy. My dad needs it for business.
Last week I went to two Christmas parties. One was our church's Christmas party and the other was our young people's Christmas party. Of course, the youth Christmas party rocked.
Today, one of my short-term goals had come to pass. I got a new laptop. I've been hoping and confessing it for months, that I will buy one. I got an ASUS A2 laptop that almost performs like my desktop PC. I bought it because I'm a very mobile person. I also had DSL just last week. That was because, we needed a phone line and before when I get online, the phone line is always busy. My dad needs it for business.
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Wineskins
(A lament)
Is this all there is?
Is faith not valid?
Faith to cling to an Unseen Force
Unseen but made Himself known
Faith to step out of your foothold
Even you venture into high cliffs of uncertainty
Is faith not valid?
Is love not valid?
Love to see not savings
But a compassion to save the soul
Love compelled to serve
Even washing the filthiest feet
Is love not valid?
Is forgiveness not valid?
Forgiveness that never holds back
Healing scars that deepens our brotherhood
Forgiveness that never closes doors
Even wounds are opened seventy seven times
Is forgiveness not valid?
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Is this all there is of You, O God?
Make Yourself known
That every people will know that You are just
And has never forsaken His people
Throw another shade of light
A light that will make men see
That You are a God who understands
Every thoughts and actions of a man
Lord, in my waking days
May I never sin to Thee
Establish Your kingdom, O God
As You live Your will in me
Is this all there is?
Is faith not valid?
Faith to cling to an Unseen Force
Unseen but made Himself known
Faith to step out of your foothold
Even you venture into high cliffs of uncertainty
Is faith not valid?
Is love not valid?
Love to see not savings
But a compassion to save the soul
Love compelled to serve
Even washing the filthiest feet
Is love not valid?
Is forgiveness not valid?
Forgiveness that never holds back
Healing scars that deepens our brotherhood
Forgiveness that never closes doors
Even wounds are opened seventy seven times
Is forgiveness not valid?
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Is this all there is of You, O God?
Make Yourself known
That every people will know that You are just
And has never forsaken His people
Throw another shade of light
A light that will make men see
That You are a God who understands
Every thoughts and actions of a man
Lord, in my waking days
May I never sin to Thee
Establish Your kingdom, O God
As You live Your will in me
I believe it is a good week ahead. Thank You.
Yesterday, went to Cartimar to get saltwater for my aquarium. I cleaned my aquarium for 4 hours. It was gruelling carrying pails of saltwater three stories high. Woke up today with soring muscles.
I'll be going to Manila Faith Assembly of God this afternoon. I'll be playing (pinao) for my good friend and mentor Kuya Jess' wedding on Saturday. Time sure flies.
There still lots of stuff to do. Work, school. But I'm just content at this moment. I believe it is a good week ahead. Thank You.
Yesterday, went to Cartimar to get saltwater for my aquarium. I cleaned my aquarium for 4 hours. It was gruelling carrying pails of saltwater three stories high. Woke up today with soring muscles.
I'll be going to Manila Faith Assembly of God this afternoon. I'll be playing (pinao) for my good friend and mentor Kuya Jess' wedding on Saturday. Time sure flies.
There still lots of stuff to do. Work, school. But I'm just content at this moment. I believe it is a good week ahead. Thank You.
Your Love Is Extravagant
Your love is extravagant
Your friendship intimate
I find I'm moving to the rhythms of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place
Your love is extravagant
Spread wide in the arms of Christ
Is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known
You considered me a friend
Capture my heart again
Love what You're doing in me, Lord
And I'm thankful, Lord
What You're doing in my heart
You're changing me, changing me
Deeper than the deepest ocean
Higher than the highest mountain
Reaches high above the heaven
Still it finds its way to me
And You're patient, Lord
And You're kind to me
Though I'm failing You sometimes
Your love never has failed me
- Darrel Evans
Your friendship intimate
I find I'm moving to the rhythms of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place
Your love is extravagant
Spread wide in the arms of Christ
Is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known
You considered me a friend
Capture my heart again
Love what You're doing in me, Lord
And I'm thankful, Lord
What You're doing in my heart
You're changing me, changing me
Deeper than the deepest ocean
Higher than the highest mountain
Reaches high above the heaven
Still it finds its way to me
And You're patient, Lord
And You're kind to me
Though I'm failing You sometimes
Your love never has failed me
- Darrel Evans
Got to see two movies this evening in cable. 'X-men 2' & 'Panic Room' starring Jodie Foster. Seems like years since the Panic Room was in theaters when it was only two years ago. I like Jodie Foster, also in movies 'Anna and the King' & 'Contact'.
I would like to watch movies in theaters but haven't got time because of schedule. I would like to see 'Alexander' & 'Santa Santita'. Saw in TV they were promoting 'OK Ka Fairy Ko The Movie.' Something in me got excited, somehow it reminisces me of my younger years.
There is an on-going three day sale in a mall today. So wanted to go to the other mall (Robinson's Place) because there are more selections there. But time doesn't permit so instead went to Tutuban where there's a Robinson's Department Store. I got a Guess shirt at 70% discount (it was around 2k in original)- imagine that. Hope I can drop by the mall tomorrow afternoon.
I would like to watch movies in theaters but haven't got time because of schedule. I would like to see 'Alexander' & 'Santa Santita'. Saw in TV they were promoting 'OK Ka Fairy Ko The Movie.' Something in me got excited, somehow it reminisces me of my younger years.
There is an on-going three day sale in a mall today. So wanted to go to the other mall (Robinson's Place) because there are more selections there. But time doesn't permit so instead went to Tutuban where there's a Robinson's Department Store. I got a Guess shirt at 70% discount (it was around 2k in original)- imagine that. Hope I can drop by the mall tomorrow afternoon.
Life of Pi
I just finished reading "Life of Pi" - a novel by Yann Martel. A good book, a must read. Talks about the life of an Indian boy named Pi, his family as they travel across the Pacific with their zoo. Unfortunate fate hit them as their ship capsized leaving Pi, an orangutan, a hyena, a zebra and a Bengal tiger in a lifeboat.
My eyes caught this book many times in the bookstore until I purchased them. I was frustrated by a slow pace in the first part but after that it was mildly engrossing. The end had a surprise twist - left you hanging in thought. A very good story, but I wouldn't credit it to the author, because this was taken from accounts of the real survivor Pi.
I wish someone has read it so I can discuss my thoughts on this book.
It's 1:35AM. I feel very, very tired now. My body wants to sleep, but my mind still have other things in mind... Just a little blogging...
My schedules had been cramped right now. I'm juggling school, work and church all at the same time. Business has been good, my projects currently counts to five. What a blessing! - Imagining I didn't even looked for them, they just came to me. Just got my fortnight paycheck from by boss. I'm itching to spend it on buying a laptop.. but not yet. These are the better days. Prosperous.
I'm already getting adjusted getting back on being a student. Every Tuesday and Wednesday I go to school and focus on doing requirements. Most of the vacant time is spent in the library, reading, secretly muching and napping. It's cool they got free internet and everyone's browsing on either Yahoo or Friendster.
I experienced this week of what it means to be 'in season & out of season.' This week started rough and its been like this the whole week. Sucks. I am distracted. But school was like an unavoidable force inching its way into my schedule. I have to go and study and connect even when I'm out of season. It was hard. I wish next week would be better.
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Today, I dropped by to my friend's church to pick up some tapes. I'm playing keyboards in his wedding few weeks from now. When I arrived I met one of his youth. And to my shock she was pregnant! I was grieved. She is one of the more active young people in his church. She was still in school and very young.. a surprise twist of life. I felt very concerned for this kid. Before I left, I prayed with her for strength, financial providence and good health.
I felt mixed emotions. I believe that there are no accidents in getting pregnant. I mean, one has come a long way to be pregnant. How can a person not avoid this kind of temptation? But that's that. There's nothing we can do about it. I'm glad that this kid has already accepted the baby - a baby girl. And I pray that this baby will be loved by the people around her.
My schedules had been cramped right now. I'm juggling school, work and church all at the same time. Business has been good, my projects currently counts to five. What a blessing! - Imagining I didn't even looked for them, they just came to me. Just got my fortnight paycheck from by boss. I'm itching to spend it on buying a laptop.. but not yet. These are the better days. Prosperous.
I'm already getting adjusted getting back on being a student. Every Tuesday and Wednesday I go to school and focus on doing requirements. Most of the vacant time is spent in the library, reading, secretly muching and napping. It's cool they got free internet and everyone's browsing on either Yahoo or Friendster.
I experienced this week of what it means to be 'in season & out of season.' This week started rough and its been like this the whole week. Sucks. I am distracted. But school was like an unavoidable force inching its way into my schedule. I have to go and study and connect even when I'm out of season. It was hard. I wish next week would be better.
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Today, I dropped by to my friend's church to pick up some tapes. I'm playing keyboards in his wedding few weeks from now. When I arrived I met one of his youth. And to my shock she was pregnant! I was grieved. She is one of the more active young people in his church. She was still in school and very young.. a surprise twist of life. I felt very concerned for this kid. Before I left, I prayed with her for strength, financial providence and good health.
I felt mixed emotions. I believe that there are no accidents in getting pregnant. I mean, one has come a long way to be pregnant. How can a person not avoid this kind of temptation? But that's that. There's nothing we can do about it. I'm glad that this kid has already accepted the baby - a baby girl. And I pray that this baby will be loved by the people around her.
Today there was a transport strike. I learned about it just after I woke up. I am going to school and meet a client in Makati. I couldn't care less about the strike. I thought there would be those law-abiding drivers who will still take out their jeepneys and earn a day's wage. But as I went out, there was hardly any jeepneys. I did manage to get to where I would like to go. It just took me a while to walk to and from the train station.
It's second week of school. I had a 9:30 class in the morning. Set alarm at 7am, woke up 7am but unconciously fell asleep and woke again at 8am. It was rush time. Don't wanna give a late-comer impression in class, but I'm not really a morning person. So hurriedly I took a shower, put on clothes and run to the LRT station.
The class had just started when I came. Today is Stress and Conflict Management. We were made to sit in a circle and do some 'bonding.' One of my classmate is Kuya Chad Visca, the District Youth Director of STDC.
We took lunch together and we parted ways after that. I went to office in Makati to sign some papers and talk with my boss overseas.
Went back to school. Lounged at the farthest corner in the library and reviewed for my Bible class. Dozed of a little. One hour before class I went up to the prayer room to pray and pour out my heart to God. It was a refresher and He was there. "Get up, take up your mat and go home..."
My class in Romans to Revelation is fun. There's always a new insight to discover; a new fact to be learned. I got to share some insights that got the approval of my professor. I am learning.
The class had just started when I came. Today is Stress and Conflict Management. We were made to sit in a circle and do some 'bonding.' One of my classmate is Kuya Chad Visca, the District Youth Director of STDC.
We took lunch together and we parted ways after that. I went to office in Makati to sign some papers and talk with my boss overseas.
Went back to school. Lounged at the farthest corner in the library and reviewed for my Bible class. Dozed of a little. One hour before class I went up to the prayer room to pray and pour out my heart to God. It was a refresher and He was there. "Get up, take up your mat and go home..."
My class in Romans to Revelation is fun. There's always a new insight to discover; a new fact to be learned. I got to share some insights that got the approval of my professor. I am learning.
He is truly a God who never fails to supply the needs of his people. Now all of my web designing projects is coming to a close, new projects are coming in, three new projects to be exact. I didn't ask for it. It just came in my doorstep. I'm very glad that He never fails to provide for those whose life is used for Him.
First Day of School
It was the first day I went to bible school. I left earlier in the afternoon. I had to go and resume my gym. After almost a month of idleness to go to gym, I finally decided to return and get those muscles pumping. It was refreshing. I'm back on track. Left gym at 3:30PM. Bought a notebook and took the train to bible school.
I came in rather early so I stopped by KFC to have an early dinner. Came in just on time. My classmates were rather an adult bunch which comprised of Indians, Koreans and Filipinos. I was the youngest of the group. A couple of yuppies and the rest were in their 40's above. My professor in Romans to Revelation, Pastor Bagalawis, started to round us off and asked to introduce ourselves. He started on the other side of the room, I was one of the last who would be speaking... my heart was pounding.
It seemed I felt out of place at first. I almost wanted to cry like a lost kid. I am at my early twenties. I am the only one from Assembly of God. I wore teeny clothes. I figured tomorrow, I'll wear more mature clothes to blend in. Maybe I'll get some glasses, besides, I've been whining about how my not-so-good vision is giving me headache.
So there, it was my turn. "My name is Patrick Tan, I'm from Binondo Assembly of God. I'm currently in youth ministry. I'm currently the youth ministry leader. This is my first class in this school." I spoke loudly, as to impress the folks, but still my heart was pounding so hard it could have jumped out across the room.
Then our prof laid out our course outline. Whoa it was overwhelming. Good that I listened to my adviser about taking only few subjects, because one subject alone had so much book reading, assignments and more book reading.
The second half of our class already started our first lesson - Paul's letter to the Romans. It was very insightful, we still haven't got passed chapter one. My professor knows what he is talking about. I'm sure I will learn many many things from him. The class discussion was participated by only a few people, some who have known my professor before. At one time I tried raising my hand to give a comment, but I noticed my hand was half-raised to none at all. I lost the opportunity when someone gave my answer... Well, maybe next time.
We ended early, but it has just started. I would be going home with book readings and assignments.
All in all, the first class was very promising. It would take effort and proper planning in order to smoothly juggle my work, my ministry and now my studies. I am ready to learn.
I came in rather early so I stopped by KFC to have an early dinner. Came in just on time. My classmates were rather an adult bunch which comprised of Indians, Koreans and Filipinos. I was the youngest of the group. A couple of yuppies and the rest were in their 40's above. My professor in Romans to Revelation, Pastor Bagalawis, started to round us off and asked to introduce ourselves. He started on the other side of the room, I was one of the last who would be speaking... my heart was pounding.
It seemed I felt out of place at first. I almost wanted to cry like a lost kid. I am at my early twenties. I am the only one from Assembly of God. I wore teeny clothes. I figured tomorrow, I'll wear more mature clothes to blend in. Maybe I'll get some glasses, besides, I've been whining about how my not-so-good vision is giving me headache.
So there, it was my turn. "My name is Patrick Tan, I'm from Binondo Assembly of God. I'm currently in youth ministry. I'm currently the youth ministry leader. This is my first class in this school." I spoke loudly, as to impress the folks, but still my heart was pounding so hard it could have jumped out across the room.
Then our prof laid out our course outline. Whoa it was overwhelming. Good that I listened to my adviser about taking only few subjects, because one subject alone had so much book reading, assignments and more book reading.
The second half of our class already started our first lesson - Paul's letter to the Romans. It was very insightful, we still haven't got passed chapter one. My professor knows what he is talking about. I'm sure I will learn many many things from him. The class discussion was participated by only a few people, some who have known my professor before. At one time I tried raising my hand to give a comment, but I noticed my hand was half-raised to none at all. I lost the opportunity when someone gave my answer... Well, maybe next time.
We ended early, but it has just started. I would be going home with book readings and assignments.
All in all, the first class was very promising. It would take effort and proper planning in order to smoothly juggle my work, my ministry and now my studies. I am ready to learn.
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The Comforter Has Come
Jars of Clay
O spread the tidings 'round, wherever man is found,
Wherever human hearts and human woes abound;
Let ev'ry Christian tongue proclaim the joyful sound:
The Comforter has come!
The long night is past, the morning breaks at last,
And hushed the dreadful wail and fury of the blast,
As o'er the golden hills the day advances fast!
The Comforter has come!
O boundless love divine! How shall this tongue of mine
To wond’ring mortals tell the matchless grace divine -
That I, a child of hell, should in His image shine!
The Comforter has come!
O spread the tidings 'round, wherever man is found,
Wherever human hearts and human woes abound;
Let ev'ry Christian tongue proclaim the joyful sound:
The Comforter has come!
The long night is past, the morning breaks at last,
And hushed the dreadful wail and fury of the blast,
As o'er the golden hills the day advances fast!
The Comforter has come!
O boundless love divine! How shall this tongue of mine
To wond’ring mortals tell the matchless grace divine -
That I, a child of hell, should in His image shine!
The Comforter has come!
Its 1AM, playing scrabble in Yahoo Games. Nothing to do.. I mean, I'm procrastinating. Still had tons of work to do. Two of my major projects are almost done in time for some Christmas shopping.. not. Everyday has been hard, financially, and even I could feel the pressure of not being able to pull out a bill from my wallet. I hope.. and pray that God would grant me a laptop for Christmas, so that I could work while in school. I just enrolled in bible school. I only got to enroll 3 subjects (9 units) as recommended by my adviser.
Last week I took three exams for my admission to Asian Seminary for Christian Ministry, the name of my school. I'm taking Masters in Divinity.. sounds like I would be studying how to be a hermit.. its not. Anyway, I passed the exams. The school is multi-racial but Koreans are a majority. I got interviewed by an old American lady and a black African, which was the dean of education. It was a pressure. The questions were in abstract/theoretical form.. the kind that gets my logical/practical brain on its feet.
This is it. No turning back. I'll be spending more than 3 years of my life in this school. The horizon looks far.
Back to my Christmas wish list:
1. A laptop with DVD/CDRW, large screen, Intel Centrino and fine aesthetics.
2. An apple iPod
3. A mini-DV camcorder...
I saw in the news this evening.. Taal is in red alert. The volcano scientists were monitoring the volcano for possible eruption. Imagine we were just on that spot just last Monday.. cool. Hope it erupts long before our retreat or hope it wouldn't erupt at all. Bad retreat publicity.
Tired, but don't wanna sleep. Lots of ideas and concepts going through my mind...
Last week I took three exams for my admission to Asian Seminary for Christian Ministry, the name of my school. I'm taking Masters in Divinity.. sounds like I would be studying how to be a hermit.. its not. Anyway, I passed the exams. The school is multi-racial but Koreans are a majority. I got interviewed by an old American lady and a black African, which was the dean of education. It was a pressure. The questions were in abstract/theoretical form.. the kind that gets my logical/practical brain on its feet.
This is it. No turning back. I'll be spending more than 3 years of my life in this school. The horizon looks far.
Back to my Christmas wish list:
1. A laptop with DVD/CDRW, large screen, Intel Centrino and fine aesthetics.
2. An apple iPod
3. A mini-DV camcorder...
I saw in the news this evening.. Taal is in red alert. The volcano scientists were monitoring the volcano for possible eruption. Imagine we were just on that spot just last Monday.. cool. Hope it erupts long before our retreat or hope it wouldn't erupt at all. Bad retreat publicity.
Tired, but don't wanna sleep. Lots of ideas and concepts going through my mind...
Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing
Come, thou Fount of every blessing
Tune my heart to sing thy grace
Streams of mercy, never ceasing
Call for songs of loudest praise
Teach me some melodious sonnet
Sung by flaming tongues above
Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it
Mount of thy redeeming love
Here I raise mine Ebenezer
Hither by thy help I'm come
And I hope, by thy good pleasure
Safely to arrive at home
Jesus sought me when a stranger
Wandering from the fold of God
He, to rescue me from danger
Interposed his precious blood
O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be
Let thy goodness, like a fetter
Bind my wandering heart to thee
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, O take and seal it
Seal it for thy courts above
Robert Robinson, 1735-1790
Tune my heart to sing thy grace
Streams of mercy, never ceasing
Call for songs of loudest praise
Teach me some melodious sonnet
Sung by flaming tongues above
Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it
Mount of thy redeeming love
Here I raise mine Ebenezer
Hither by thy help I'm come
And I hope, by thy good pleasure
Safely to arrive at home
Jesus sought me when a stranger
Wandering from the fold of God
He, to rescue me from danger
Interposed his precious blood
O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be
Let thy goodness, like a fetter
Bind my wandering heart to thee
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, O take and seal it
Seal it for thy courts above
Robert Robinson, 1735-1790
Left house at 10AM to gym. Haven't got breakfast, so after putting my stuff in the gym locker I went out to have breakfast or lunch.. it's 11AM. Ate macaroni salad at Wendy's.. So conio-looking with the fork and the salad.. haha. Got full more than I expected, now I was worried if I might get appendecitis when I start at 11:30... Finished 2PM, I often procrastinate.
After gym bought a Dairy Queen Blizzard ice cream, haha.. Similar to the BEST ICE CREAM I'VE EVER EATEN IN MY LIFE at Enchanted Kingdom.. Rocky Road.. Similar in composition but miles away from the BEST ICE CREAM I'VE EVER EATEN IN MY LIFE..
I thought of watching movie so I watched Feng Shui... A local horror movie, like The Grudge or The Ring (I havent seen these movies though). I'm not really a fan of horror flicks, I was intruiged by the title.. somehow it relates to the Chinese culture so I watched it.
Feng Shui was a better than I expected of Filipino horror films. I specially liked the story except for how the people were dying.. Example, this guy who was born on the year of the rabbit was killed in a road accident involving a Philippine rabbit bus liner.. one of the main characters who was born on the year of the horse was almost killed by a 'kabayo ng plantsa (ironing board.. kabayo means horse)' (that made me laugh..) and eventually died when she fell on cases of bottles of Red Horse beer.. see the picture..
I remember when my family were still Catholi-Buddhists, a fusion of religion common to Filipino-Chinese.. Feng shui was a common part of our lives. Don't do this, don't do that.. don't anger the spirits.. I'm glad we're done with that.. we have found the truth in Jesus.
After gym bought a Dairy Queen Blizzard ice cream, haha.. Similar to the BEST ICE CREAM I'VE EVER EATEN IN MY LIFE at Enchanted Kingdom.. Rocky Road.. Similar in composition but miles away from the BEST ICE CREAM I'VE EVER EATEN IN MY LIFE..
I thought of watching movie so I watched Feng Shui... A local horror movie, like The Grudge or The Ring (I havent seen these movies though). I'm not really a fan of horror flicks, I was intruiged by the title.. somehow it relates to the Chinese culture so I watched it.
Feng Shui was a better than I expected of Filipino horror films. I specially liked the story except for how the people were dying.. Example, this guy who was born on the year of the rabbit was killed in a road accident involving a Philippine rabbit bus liner.. one of the main characters who was born on the year of the horse was almost killed by a 'kabayo ng plantsa (ironing board.. kabayo means horse)' (that made me laugh..) and eventually died when she fell on cases of bottles of Red Horse beer.. see the picture..
I remember when my family were still Catholi-Buddhists, a fusion of religion common to Filipino-Chinese.. Feng shui was a common part of our lives. Don't do this, don't do that.. don't anger the spirits.. I'm glad we're done with that.. we have found the truth in Jesus.
Saturday. Woke up at 5 for an early jog with Brznf & Jerald. Had only 4 hours of sleep. We jogged and walked from Binondo to Intramuros to Cultural Center. Met Johannsen at McDonalds in Vito Cruz for breakfast.
After jogging went to SM West to go to gym. I signed up to a one-year program day before, which I was not sure if I can complete. My friend or my friend's contact in the gym talked me to enlist. So there I am in my first day in the gym. Did some routine exercises like before. Few hours after, I became dizzy and almost collapsed. I found out I had low blood pressure..
This was the first time I had low blood. The trainers assisted me to their clinic and laid me in bed to rest for a while while takeing my blood pressure regularly. The staff had been very accomodating. After a few minutes, I returned to normal blood and set off early to go home and rest. It was due to my lack of sleep that I got low blood they said.
Tomorrow I'll be going to gym again.
After jogging went to SM West to go to gym. I signed up to a one-year program day before, which I was not sure if I can complete. My friend or my friend's contact in the gym talked me to enlist. So there I am in my first day in the gym. Did some routine exercises like before. Few hours after, I became dizzy and almost collapsed. I found out I had low blood pressure..
This was the first time I had low blood. The trainers assisted me to their clinic and laid me in bed to rest for a while while takeing my blood pressure regularly. The staff had been very accomodating. After a few minutes, I returned to normal blood and set off early to go home and rest. It was due to my lack of sleep that I got low blood they said.
Tomorrow I'll be going to gym again.
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Had nothing to do today. Our campus meeting was cancelled due coming exams and project submissions of students.
Watch movie in the afternoon. Bourne Supremacy was great even though it's only a sequel to Bourne Identity. Lots of twists and turns and great casting. When I went out it had rained, so I planeed to head home. On the way, I thought I could get some haircut so I hurried off to the salon. Went home pretty late because of traffic.
Air is beginning to chill up in the evening. Christmas is coming.. yay!
Watch movie in the afternoon. Bourne Supremacy was great even though it's only a sequel to Bourne Identity. Lots of twists and turns and great casting. When I went out it had rained, so I planeed to head home. On the way, I thought I could get some haircut so I hurried off to the salon. Went home pretty late because of traffic.
Air is beginning to chill up in the evening. Christmas is coming.. yay!
Old Man, Where Are You Going?
Old man, where are you going?
Maybe you're going where I'm going
Where earth is floor and sky is roof
Can I hitch a ride?
Please don't be too hasty
I'm not in a hurry
Every minute, every second
I want savor it while present
Please don't be too dim
Dark clouds are already forboding
On the other hand the land is dry
So rain fall down and quench the earth!
Please don't be too serious
The earth is round and we're just going in circles
Look at the roadside
Stop and smell the roses
Life, where are you going?
Maybe you're going where I'm going
Where earth is floor and sky is roof
Can I hitch a ride?
Maybe you're going where I'm going
Where earth is floor and sky is roof
Can I hitch a ride?
Please don't be too hasty
I'm not in a hurry
Every minute, every second
I want savor it while present
Please don't be too dim
Dark clouds are already forboding
On the other hand the land is dry
So rain fall down and quench the earth!
Please don't be too serious
The earth is round and we're just going in circles
Look at the roadside
Stop and smell the roses
Life, where are you going?
Maybe you're going where I'm going
Where earth is floor and sky is roof
Can I hitch a ride?
Haven't posted in a long time. But here I am again...
LAST SATURDAY
Last Saturday the youth cellgroups had an acquaintance party. I'm glad that our youth group is growing.
LAST NIGHT
Our company gave out a thanksgiving dinner, also to meet the new members of the VFT family. Surprised that most of the people I've worked with were already out of the company. The team seldom see each other because we only work at home, which is good for me and my ministry.
Funny to see people in unbelief when I tell them I'm going to Bible school.
This month marks my 2nd year at VFT.
LAST SATURDAY
Last Saturday the youth cellgroups had an acquaintance party. I'm glad that our youth group is growing.
LAST NIGHT
Our company gave out a thanksgiving dinner, also to meet the new members of the VFT family. Surprised that most of the people I've worked with were already out of the company. The team seldom see each other because we only work at home, which is good for me and my ministry.
Funny to see people in unbelief when I tell them I'm going to Bible school.
This month marks my 2nd year at VFT.
These past few days has been outrageous. Can I still conquer these obstacles? I am no Superman. I'm just a kid. All I can say is whoa.
Dark as the heavens tonight is my spirit.
Brick upon brick of heaviness my heart screams for air.
Flaming fire snuffed so abrupt is the soul where I found flight.
My face is veiled with the dark shade of loneliness.
In the deepest pit I shall call unto my God, "Save me!"
Does he hear even in this deep filth of sorrow?
What can men do with such reckless hate.
But in the end He will find me. My heart tells me so.
But for a man of little faith what matters is today.
And yesterday is a gallery of gloom.
Horizons seem dark, I am at the bottom of the wheel.
Tomorrow promises new mornings too long to wait upon.
Dark as the heavens tonight is my spirit.
Brick upon brick of heaviness my heart screams for air.
Flaming fire snuffed so abrupt is the soul where I found flight.
My face is veiled with the dark shade of loneliness.
In the deepest pit I shall call unto my God, "Save me!"
Does he hear even in this deep filth of sorrow?
What can men do with such reckless hate.
But in the end He will find me. My heart tells me so.
But for a man of little faith what matters is today.
And yesterday is a gallery of gloom.
Horizons seem dark, I am at the bottom of the wheel.
Tomorrow promises new mornings too long to wait upon.
Today is my birthday. I'm now 23, though before I thought I was 23. I always add up one year to my age, so I would act more mature (is that right..) Anyway, I see myself as 24 now.. time had really flown very very fast. I remember a quote from Gandalf in LOTR: "I've walked with men for three hundred years but now I have no time..." something like that.
I have not much celebrated my birthday today. Today was the last day of our youth leadership training. I woke up still tired. I practiced last night as worship leader for Sunday. I went to ICS still sleepy, silent and edgy.
I did not speak today. Something was different. Except for Kuya Sur's frequent acknowledgement of my birthday in front, which everytime made me smaller and smaller. But I appreciate his expression of acknowledgement. I'm just a terribly shy person.
I met quite a number of noisy people that tested my patience today. It made me look different, unpopular and boring.
Since this morning I received lots of SMS, MMS, emails greeting me a happy birthday... really appreciated they remembered. My family gave me a white gold necklace.. Brznf gave me a chime and a sea shell display..
Today at 23, I am ever been blessed with God on my side. I hope and pray that my hope for the ministry soon come to pass. But even if not, Hebrews tells us Abraham and the Old Testament people never saw their dreams fulfilled, only in a distance... to add to that, they were persecuted, tortured, sawn in half... But still they persisted and persevered. That's how I want to be.
I have not much celebrated my birthday today. Today was the last day of our youth leadership training. I woke up still tired. I practiced last night as worship leader for Sunday. I went to ICS still sleepy, silent and edgy.
I did not speak today. Something was different. Except for Kuya Sur's frequent acknowledgement of my birthday in front, which everytime made me smaller and smaller. But I appreciate his expression of acknowledgement. I'm just a terribly shy person.
I met quite a number of noisy people that tested my patience today. It made me look different, unpopular and boring.
Since this morning I received lots of SMS, MMS, emails greeting me a happy birthday... really appreciated they remembered. My family gave me a white gold necklace.. Brznf gave me a chime and a sea shell display..
Today at 23, I am ever been blessed with God on my side. I hope and pray that my hope for the ministry soon come to pass. But even if not, Hebrews tells us Abraham and the Old Testament people never saw their dreams fulfilled, only in a distance... to add to that, they were persecuted, tortured, sawn in half... But still they persisted and persevered. That's how I want to be.
Today I saw the movie "The Notebook" with the campus ministry students. So far the best love story I've ever seen, I was a bit teary-eyed. It was an adaptation of the novel by Nicholas Sparks who made "A Walk to Remember", also a good romance movie.
After that I met my parents and went to Cartimar to get some rocks for my aquarium. After that I dropped by Campus Crusade to pick-up a gift from Ate Merla from AIYS 2004, it's my birthday on September 11.
September 11, easy to remember right. I still remember where I was during 9-11 in 2001... I'm at a friend's house for an overnight. It was the thesis months and students often stay together at one of their homes to work together and help with each other's thesis plate. It was a long practiced tradition. It was my birthday and I treated my friends for house dinner at my friend's apartment. No TV or whatsoever for weeks. I learned about 9-11 when a friend called me, there was no access to TV so I had to see it for a couple days more. Scary stuff.
Anyway, another year for me...
After that I met my parents and went to Cartimar to get some rocks for my aquarium. After that I dropped by Campus Crusade to pick-up a gift from Ate Merla from AIYS 2004, it's my birthday on September 11.
September 11, easy to remember right. I still remember where I was during 9-11 in 2001... I'm at a friend's house for an overnight. It was the thesis months and students often stay together at one of their homes to work together and help with each other's thesis plate. It was a long practiced tradition. It was my birthday and I treated my friends for house dinner at my friend's apartment. No TV or whatsoever for weeks. I learned about 9-11 when a friend called me, there was no access to TV so I had to see it for a couple days more. Scary stuff.
Anyway, another year for me...
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Woke up this morning very, very early. Today was the Youth Leadership Training in which I would be speaking in a subject. Last two nights I slept quite late... It was a tough preparation plus pressure. Never had some action for quite sometime so I welcome the stretch. :)
It was quite a rush, I woke up only an hour early. I had to attend to my aquarium first because there was a dead fish stuck in the crevices and need to take it off. It smelled horrendous. We left and took the fastest way to ICS where Kuya Sur pastors.
We arrived just in time. We registered. I was too embarassed to introduce that I was a speaker so they made a laminated nametag while there was prepared nametags for the teachers. The crowd was approximately 30. And as the hours passed and my time was getting near I felt my heart pound louder and louder. Then it was my time.
Kuya Sur thought I handled it pretty well. Mimi told me I talked fast and loud (My time flew fast). I was a little scared how the crowd will receive me since we're almost the same ages and perhaps they have more experience than me. It's all good. Glad I passed the first-time rite of passge. I will still be speaking next time to continue my session.
I felt really good. Touching lives and adding value to these young leaders was a great responsibility yet a privilege and honor. I'm humbled and honored teaching together with the key leaders of National Youth Department.
Before going home we got a quick bite in Megamall and guess who I found there. Teresa, the Taiwanese delegate from AIYS 2004. We're both very delighted to see each other. She is here in training as the Book of Hope coordinator in Taiwan.
I have this aching pain in the back. My mom for days have been telling me its my posture. Maybe its that. Maybe it's also the strain my put my joints into when I stretch. Am I getting old? :)
It was quite a rush, I woke up only an hour early. I had to attend to my aquarium first because there was a dead fish stuck in the crevices and need to take it off. It smelled horrendous. We left and took the fastest way to ICS where Kuya Sur pastors.
We arrived just in time. We registered. I was too embarassed to introduce that I was a speaker so they made a laminated nametag while there was prepared nametags for the teachers. The crowd was approximately 30. And as the hours passed and my time was getting near I felt my heart pound louder and louder. Then it was my time.
Kuya Sur thought I handled it pretty well. Mimi told me I talked fast and loud (My time flew fast). I was a little scared how the crowd will receive me since we're almost the same ages and perhaps they have more experience than me. It's all good. Glad I passed the first-time rite of passge. I will still be speaking next time to continue my session.
I felt really good. Touching lives and adding value to these young leaders was a great responsibility yet a privilege and honor. I'm humbled and honored teaching together with the key leaders of National Youth Department.
Before going home we got a quick bite in Megamall and guess who I found there. Teresa, the Taiwanese delegate from AIYS 2004. We're both very delighted to see each other. She is here in training as the Book of Hope coordinator in Taiwan.
I have this aching pain in the back. My mom for days have been telling me its my posture. Maybe its that. Maybe it's also the strain my put my joints into when I stretch. Am I getting old? :)
If you, O LORD , kept a record of sins,
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.
I wait for the LORD , my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
O Israel, put your hope in the LORD ,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
Psalm 130:3-7
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.
I wait for the LORD , my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
O Israel, put your hope in the LORD ,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
Psalm 130:3-7
Today I decided to go to Cartimar to buy more fish and corals for my salt water aquarium. It was an end-to-end journey from Monumento to Gil Puyat. I shopped a number of corals, surprisingly my only coral (elegance coral it's called) is doing very well in natural lighting (sunlight), before I used to use artificial lighting but now my aquarium is located in the terrace it receives enough light. So I bought 5 more and bought a couple of fishes. I also bought snails which eats up algae from the rocks and glass, because having natural lighting somehow speeds up the growth of algae.
I went home with three full and heavy bags of water-filled plastic bags. The LRT security did not allow me to ride LRT because taking live animals in the train is prohibited... weird, I would understand if it were a dog or cat, but a harmless fish? So I took a jeepney home. It was a long journey home almost an hour..
I have been quite an avid hobbyist for salt water aquariums. I have been setting up aquariums at an early age. I started a 5-gallon fresh water aquarium. I learned of salt water aquarium during highschool and still continues until now.
I really haven't analyzed what's the catch why I so painstakingly set up marine aquariums, not to mention the money I spend in this not-so-cheap hobby. I guess I love to have a peace of the sea near me, the feeling of calm and love for nature.
I went home with three full and heavy bags of water-filled plastic bags. The LRT security did not allow me to ride LRT because taking live animals in the train is prohibited... weird, I would understand if it were a dog or cat, but a harmless fish? So I took a jeepney home. It was a long journey home almost an hour..
I have been quite an avid hobbyist for salt water aquariums. I have been setting up aquariums at an early age. I started a 5-gallon fresh water aquarium. I learned of salt water aquarium during highschool and still continues until now.
I really haven't analyzed what's the catch why I so painstakingly set up marine aquariums, not to mention the money I spend in this not-so-cheap hobby. I guess I love to have a peace of the sea near me, the feeling of calm and love for nature.
Still awake. It's like I still avoid sleeping because I have not yet communed with Him completely. It has been rough. But I'm trying to reach out to Him. It's hard but possible nonetheless. I always remind myself to drown myself in His presence. I am listening for that still small voice... listening hard. Where could it be?
I talked with one of my youth in YM a while ago. Sometimes we feel like Superman. Like we think we know all the answers. We think we know all the solutions to all the problems. But sometimes we don't take our own prescriptions.
I shared to her about Psalm 139 about how God created you and therefore knows You more than you could possibly know yourself. I told her when God makes something, it's of good quality; so when you feel like crap, remember that God made you and you are special. Then it hit me, as if it was God's still small voice reaching out to me. Then I cried.
I followed that still small voice, I listened to my heart but it wasn't there. Where are you God? I called out to Him as if chanting to summon an ancient spirit. Where could he be? I looked for you in your songs. I looked for you in your words. But you were silent. As if you turned away from me.
O Lord, do not forsake me;
be not far from me, O my God.
Come quickly to help me,
O Lord my Savior.
I talked with one of my youth in YM a while ago. Sometimes we feel like Superman. Like we think we know all the answers. We think we know all the solutions to all the problems. But sometimes we don't take our own prescriptions.
I shared to her about Psalm 139 about how God created you and therefore knows You more than you could possibly know yourself. I told her when God makes something, it's of good quality; so when you feel like crap, remember that God made you and you are special. Then it hit me, as if it was God's still small voice reaching out to me. Then I cried.
I followed that still small voice, I listened to my heart but it wasn't there. Where are you God? I called out to Him as if chanting to summon an ancient spirit. Where could he be? I looked for you in your songs. I looked for you in your words. But you were silent. As if you turned away from me.
O Lord, do not forsake me;
be not far from me, O my God.
Come quickly to help me,
O Lord my Savior.
Guidelines for living with a melancholeric person like me:
- If you treat me as a friend, I will gladly return the favor. If you treat me only as your superior, I will treat you as a subordinate.
- Don't lie to me, especially when you are bad at it. If I catch you, you destroy my trust and respect for you.
- What you think about yourself is what I think about you.
- If you treat me as a friend, I will gladly return the favor. If you treat me only as your superior, I will treat you as a subordinate.
- Don't lie to me, especially when you are bad at it. If I catch you, you destroy my trust and respect for you.
- What you think about yourself is what I think about you.
I'm back... in blogging. People were already asking me why I wasn't updating my blog anymore. I told them I am busy... or rather lazy to blog. Anyway...
I woke up late. Because I slept late. If my mom would not wake me up for lunch time I would have dozed off a little longer. I also missed Kuya Sur's preaching gig at Bethel Bible College. I said I was going but I failed to wake up. Right now I feel like crap.
Yesterday I went to the sectional ministers meeting in Sta. Mesa. I came an hour early, because I thought the meeting was at 12 noon, but it was on 2pm. Earlier I've noticed the untimely schedule of 12 noon but didn't care to ask. So I got lunch first and went back.
I am always humbled by the presence of men of God, old and older.
I woke up late. Because I slept late. If my mom would not wake me up for lunch time I would have dozed off a little longer. I also missed Kuya Sur's preaching gig at Bethel Bible College. I said I was going but I failed to wake up. Right now I feel like crap.
Yesterday I went to the sectional ministers meeting in Sta. Mesa. I came an hour early, because I thought the meeting was at 12 noon, but it was on 2pm. Earlier I've noticed the untimely schedule of 12 noon but didn't care to ask. So I got lunch first and went back.
I am always humbled by the presence of men of God, old and older.
Lamay
Malapit na magbukang-liwayway
Ngunit hindi pa rin dalawin ng Antok
Ang aking walang-kapagurang Espiritu
Bawat Segundo'y lumipas gaya ng isang oras
Sa katahimikan ng Gabi
Mahina pa ang liwanag kumaripas na ang dilim
Malapit na magbukang-liwayway
Ngunit hindi pa rin dalawin ng Antok
Ang aking bagsak na katawan
Ang Oportunidad ay mahalaga
Ngunit gayundin ang Kalakasan
Halika't gawin mo na ang pagsugod
Malapit na magbukang-liwayway
Ngunit hindi pa rin dalawin ng Antok
Ang aking isipang lumalangoy sa Kaguluhan
Ang dilim ay unti nang nagtatago
Sa bagong umagang dumarating
Ang Gabi ay isang kasayangan
+ + +
Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My tireless Spirit
Seconds pass like hours
In the stillness of Night
Melting darkness into light
Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My weightful tired Body
Opportuny is precious
But so is Strength
Sleep, come now and make your kill
Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My mind that utter Chaos
Darkness slowly retreats
From the new day ahead
Night is wastefully spent
Ngunit hindi pa rin dalawin ng Antok
Ang aking walang-kapagurang Espiritu
Bawat Segundo'y lumipas gaya ng isang oras
Sa katahimikan ng Gabi
Mahina pa ang liwanag kumaripas na ang dilim
Malapit na magbukang-liwayway
Ngunit hindi pa rin dalawin ng Antok
Ang aking bagsak na katawan
Ang Oportunidad ay mahalaga
Ngunit gayundin ang Kalakasan
Halika't gawin mo na ang pagsugod
Malapit na magbukang-liwayway
Ngunit hindi pa rin dalawin ng Antok
Ang aking isipang lumalangoy sa Kaguluhan
Ang dilim ay unti nang nagtatago
Sa bagong umagang dumarating
Ang Gabi ay isang kasayangan
+ + +
Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My tireless Spirit
Seconds pass like hours
In the stillness of Night
Melting darkness into light
Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My weightful tired Body
Opportuny is precious
But so is Strength
Sleep, come now and make your kill
Dawn is at hand
Still Slumber fails to conquer
My mind that utter Chaos
Darkness slowly retreats
From the new day ahead
Night is wastefully spent
Campus ministry today. We were finally warned by the McDonald's management to refrain from staying or conducting carecell after we finished eating because other people have no other seat to find. Well not only our group were notified but other groups of students who are staying at McDonalds but not eating. It's midterm exams at Chiang Kai Shek College and student's flock to McDonalds to hold group studies. I don't know if we were just warned because that day there were many students who are staying there, or if the management is watching us.
What added to my paranoia was some students of our group brought liquor with them. Eventhough they said it was not really vodka but a mix of chocolate & vodka or raspberry & vodka. Still it is liquor. I noticed the management were watching us. The other group brought out UNO cards that the management thought were regular deck of cards and they were gambling. We really hit bad shot big time...
Pray God will give us a new place near the school to hold our cell.
What added to my paranoia was some students of our group brought liquor with them. Eventhough they said it was not really vodka but a mix of chocolate & vodka or raspberry & vodka. Still it is liquor. I noticed the management were watching us. The other group brought out UNO cards that the management thought were regular deck of cards and they were gambling. We really hit bad shot big time...
Pray God will give us a new place near the school to hold our cell.
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