Few days ago, I started reading The Alchemist again, finally I'm understanding it. First time I read it was a hard read. I'm enjoying it now. Now it speaks to me. I feel for Santiago the shepherd. How he met the old king and went to journey for his Personal Legend yet to realize that it was not an easy feat that he begins to doubt his Personal Legend. But one thing pushes him to pursue: the old kings prophectic words. Sometimes sitautions shake your faith, cause you to be discouraged and wish to head back home. But the thing that keeps me pursuing my Personal Legend is His call and promise in my life.
The Mind of the Melancholeric Man: Musings on Life and Ministry by Patrick Tan
Home
Night has past, darkness gone
Slumber is a time of searching and infinity
I wake up amongst legions but yet alone
Alone because I chose to be
For feet soiled cannot enter Thy house
Yet Thy shores yearns for a son
Endless sunsets and vast horizons calling
Come home
Slumber is a time of searching and infinity
I wake up amongst legions but yet alone
Alone because I chose to be
For feet soiled cannot enter Thy house
Yet Thy shores yearns for a son
Endless sunsets and vast horizons calling
Come home
Woke up at 12NN today. I had a good rest. My mom woke me up to tell me my grandfather is not breathing. After a few minutes, I went down to find my aunt crying beside my lolo's bed. He is gone. I am not that sad. 'Cause finally my lolo is somewhere out of pain, incapacity and misery. For the last few weeks he's been in the hospital. Last time I saw him I was shocked to see him skin and bones. Finally his ordeal is over. He's in the funeral right now with his chidren. Some still flying to Manila to see him for the last time.
Original Me
The Caucasian Me
The Middle-Eastern Me
The Black Me
The Prehistoric Me
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I heard the joke over the radio in an FX this week that made me laugh. I don't really laugh much at scripted jokes but this one did. Ironically the station was the one with the tagline "kailangan pa bang i-memorize yan?" which I wouldn't be "caught dead" listening to it, unless I'm trapped in an FX taxi. Anyway here's the joke...
Girl (both of them had a jolog accent): Ayy! Naiputan ako ng ibon sa ulo!
Boy: Sandali lang, kukuha lang ako ng toilet paper...
Girl: 'Wag na. Huli ka na! Paano mo pa pupunasan yung puwet nung ibon, e lumipad na!
"Kailangan pa bang i-memorize yan?!" (in Mahal-like voice)
Har har.
Girl (both of them had a jolog accent): Ayy! Naiputan ako ng ibon sa ulo!
Boy: Sandali lang, kukuha lang ako ng toilet paper...
Girl: 'Wag na. Huli ka na! Paano mo pa pupunasan yung puwet nung ibon, e lumipad na!
"Kailangan pa bang i-memorize yan?!" (in Mahal-like voice)
Har har.
Finally after a long-time searching I finally found this book in this month's Powerbooks Sale just sitting by itself on a shelf. This afternoon was spent walking around the mall while waiting for my evening class. This morning, I woke up in panic as I was awaken by my mom to find out that it as zero minutes to my class! Last evening I told my dad to wake me up, but failed to wake me up on time. I remember waking up at 5AM from the cellphone alarm but put it on snooze. So I came in to class at 10AM, an hour after class start.Friday. I was supposed to have BS at MHCN, but the students cancelled. I'm getting discouraged about the way the students perceive the BS. I'm trying to analyze the original purpose why I set up the BS in MHCN.. But besides some minor glitches, life has been fairly blessed. I am very happy for what's happening at CCM, I can see the hunger of the students for the Bible and I see it in their lives. I just pray that Chi-Alpha would be recognized as a school org next semester.
In the afternoon, had to fetch my brother from school and take our househelp to the hospital to swap with my mom in staying in for my grandfather. Then we went to church to practice for sunday worship. It's been a while since I will lead worship again. In our church we have this sound system guy. He's a little old.. and difficult. The musicians and this guy has a growing rift because of difference of taste in sound. Sometimes even I get nerved up dealing with the brother. In the end its the worship that suffers, and I hate it. Lately I've been staying out of the tension, because I feel it's useless trying to fix it up. I just end up annoyed and disoriented. I just wish that God would bring resolution to this.
I remember my Worship and Music professor talk about this. She would refer to Romans 14. It talks about the strong giving way for the weak not to stumble..
In the afternoon, had to fetch my brother from school and take our househelp to the hospital to swap with my mom in staying in for my grandfather. Then we went to church to practice for sunday worship. It's been a while since I will lead worship again. In our church we have this sound system guy. He's a little old.. and difficult. The musicians and this guy has a growing rift because of difference of taste in sound. Sometimes even I get nerved up dealing with the brother. In the end its the worship that suffers, and I hate it. Lately I've been staying out of the tension, because I feel it's useless trying to fix it up. I just end up annoyed and disoriented. I just wish that God would bring resolution to this.
I remember my Worship and Music professor talk about this. She would refer to Romans 14. It talks about the strong giving way for the weak not to stumble..
Our misconception is that Christ wants to change our personalities. Nothing could be farther from the truth. He wants to redeem our personalities. Christ wants to make stubbornness into steadfastness, emotionalism into compassion, foolhardiness into faith. We are "fearfully and wonderfully made," and Jesus' purpose is for us to reach the full potential of this craftsmanship.
Here at Greenbelt 1... This morning I woke up sore. Slept late last night. Trying to upload this huge video file of our concert in YouTube. So far I have uploaded 1 of 5. Sucks. Everytime it's almost done uploading someone would call and the Internet connection disconnects for a while and goes back up. But then my upload doesn't continue.
Had midterm exams at 9AM. I came in 9:45AM and learn that our professor only gave us until 10AM to finish the test. Damn traffic. I was already at jeepney station in Buendia at 9AM. Suddenly it started to rain. Traffic halts at Osmena highway 9:30, so I had to walk from there to Ayala to school. But it's all good. Thank God the questions that came out of the test were the ones I learned from the past lectures. I'm not much of a review buff. I just take in what's served during classes. It's easier that way. I mean, why would you be scared if you have already discussed it in class? After the test we exchanged papers. I got 44 out of 50 for the objective exam. Not bad huh? Essay part will be checked by the professor. Even though the essay test say to answer 4 of 5 questions. I answered all hoping to get extra points for answering everything :P Yeah I know, I'm a nerd.
After class went to prayer room, prayed and slept for a while... With nothing much to do after I let my feet do the walking to take me anywhere. I went to National Bookstore in Greenbelt 1 and end up buying this cool book:
It's about a guys little art project called PostSecret. He would give people postcards and ask them to write a secret they never told anyone and anonymously mail it to him. He has his own blogsite: http://postsecret.blogspot.com. Some entries are funny, others very sad, others shocking. I want to send some myself. :)
After that I went decided I want to sit and read. Starbucks.. too expensive. McDonalds will do. So went there got a nice quiet place and read. Watching people around. There was this Middle Eastern guy with a Filipino Muslim lady. Not his wife. Perhaps he's a recruiter or something. He left after she filled up some forms and he came back after 30 minutes. After that some old guy came with middle aged men. He seems to be business rich guy. Talking about projects and buildings and islands etc. But I hated it when he speaks, he puts P.I. in every phrase he says. As in like a household name. I can't stand it so I packed and left. Sometimes I stereotype out-of-school but successful business people. They curse a lot, they think they know it all, and you feel like a micro-ogranism. They are like Robin Hoods. They have their own justice system. Not really interested in God. But well, God still loves them.
So I'm now here in an internet cafe. 2 more hours till my next class. I should be in library doing homework but I gave myself a break. It's midterms week. I wanna go home and rest/sleep. But I can't. I was already absent last Friday.
Had midterm exams at 9AM. I came in 9:45AM and learn that our professor only gave us until 10AM to finish the test. Damn traffic. I was already at jeepney station in Buendia at 9AM. Suddenly it started to rain. Traffic halts at Osmena highway 9:30, so I had to walk from there to Ayala to school. But it's all good. Thank God the questions that came out of the test were the ones I learned from the past lectures. I'm not much of a review buff. I just take in what's served during classes. It's easier that way. I mean, why would you be scared if you have already discussed it in class? After the test we exchanged papers. I got 44 out of 50 for the objective exam. Not bad huh? Essay part will be checked by the professor. Even though the essay test say to answer 4 of 5 questions. I answered all hoping to get extra points for answering everything :P Yeah I know, I'm a nerd.
After class went to prayer room, prayed and slept for a while... With nothing much to do after I let my feet do the walking to take me anywhere. I went to National Bookstore in Greenbelt 1 and end up buying this cool book:
It's about a guys little art project called PostSecret. He would give people postcards and ask them to write a secret they never told anyone and anonymously mail it to him. He has his own blogsite: http://postsecret.blogspot.com. Some entries are funny, others very sad, others shocking. I want to send some myself. :)
After that I went decided I want to sit and read. Starbucks.. too expensive. McDonalds will do. So went there got a nice quiet place and read. Watching people around. There was this Middle Eastern guy with a Filipino Muslim lady. Not his wife. Perhaps he's a recruiter or something. He left after she filled up some forms and he came back after 30 minutes. After that some old guy came with middle aged men. He seems to be business rich guy. Talking about projects and buildings and islands etc. But I hated it when he speaks, he puts P.I. in every phrase he says. As in like a household name. I can't stand it so I packed and left. Sometimes I stereotype out-of-school but successful business people. They curse a lot, they think they know it all, and you feel like a micro-ogranism. They are like Robin Hoods. They have their own justice system. Not really interested in God. But well, God still loves them.
So I'm now here in an internet cafe. 2 more hours till my next class. I should be in library doing homework but I gave myself a break. It's midterms week. I wanna go home and rest/sleep. But I can't. I was already absent last Friday.
Sitting here in front of the computer listening to sounds of running water. My mind has a lot going on right now and I'm getting a headache. Hoping this water therapy would help me relax. I'm feeling restless. I felt this headache when I went to school this afternoon. I rode an LRT without airconditioning and it was hot! Then coming to school for the Hebrew Midterm I entered a cool room. Then wore glasses, which added to eye strain. Plus lots of things going on my head and lots of things hearing at the same time! Some things that are in my head right now... randomly.
- the youth ministry
- the upcoming sectional youth fellowship
- my grandfather was taken to hospital. They say he's very weak now.
- parents talking people talking and talking
- midterm exams tomorrow morning
- Chi-Alpha meeting on Saturday
- preaching next Sunday
- the youth ministry
- the upcoming sectional youth fellowship
- my grandfather was taken to hospital. They say he's very weak now.
- parents talking people talking and talking
- midterm exams tomorrow morning
- Chi-Alpha meeting on Saturday
- preaching next Sunday
(This was my account of the recent concert we had in youth as written to Firebrands yahoogroup.)
Praise God for a very, very successful All-out Praise and Worship.. The Lord really moves in MIGHTY ways! It was all God's working. I want to congratulate every person who was behind this concert and all who supported in any way. I know all of us have a story to tell. So let me share mine..
Weeks before I'm already praying for APAW. My prayer was, "Lord, you know how much people (souls) we could accomodate, so I have no qualms whatsoever how much you have determined to send." Sabi ko Lord kayo mas nakakaalam kung ano ang kakayanin namin, kaya wala akong reklamo kung kaunti man yan o marami, but let us be good stewards of your blessings.
Days nearing APAW, I begin to hear some good and bad news.. May bibring na friend si ganito.. tapos yung buoung Lorenzo Ruiz Academy hindi darating kasi tumama sa exams (Pero anjan pa din si Daryl at Andrew! :P), some people from Metro e hindi din darating. Tapus yung mga CD promotion natin nagloloko pa! So it was a 50-50 projection on my part. But I was postive of a good outcome, but not like THIS!
So nung kinaumagahan, paggising ko, bumabagyo.. lakas ng hangin at ulan. Isip ko 'tsk, eto na naman'. Umalis kami ni Lawrence ng house mga 10.. mejo tumila yung ulan, pero along the way palakad sa church inabot kami at nabasa. In a sense na-dampen din yung spirit namin, kasi we're placed in a situation na hindi namin matakasan. Basam-basa kami, sapatos, pantalon, t-shirt... tapos wala pang dalang extra. Nakakadrain ng patience. I sang worship songs within myself. I was thinking about Jesus and how he calmed the storm and His other miracles because in Him all things are possible! But during those ordeal I felt God was saying, "I can cause the sky to rain that people would not come to the concert, but so that you may not glory on yourselves (human ability), you need to trust me, and watch what I WILL DO." Pagdating sa church, kasama namin si Mark & Richard, inaayos yung place tapos out of nowhere namatay lahat ng kuryente (parang overload pero hindi kasi wala naman maraming nakasaksak). So kinabahan na naman kami. Pero after calling pastor & bro juanito, naayos din namin yung kuryente and we're back... So by 4PM.. people started coming and the rest was history ika nga (More than 100 young people came!) And throughout and after the event, I pondered, this was not work of people, lest of individual persons, it was the work of the Lord. Ika nga we sow, "but God makes it grow."
Talagang nakaka-amaze si God ano? Sana maencourage po kau sa testi ko. Let's pray that this will be a start of greater things to come from God!
Praise God for a very, very successful All-out Praise and Worship.. The Lord really moves in MIGHTY ways! It was all God's working. I want to congratulate every person who was behind this concert and all who supported in any way. I know all of us have a story to tell. So let me share mine..
Weeks before I'm already praying for APAW. My prayer was, "Lord, you know how much people (souls) we could accomodate, so I have no qualms whatsoever how much you have determined to send." Sabi ko Lord kayo mas nakakaalam kung ano ang kakayanin namin, kaya wala akong reklamo kung kaunti man yan o marami, but let us be good stewards of your blessings.
Days nearing APAW, I begin to hear some good and bad news.. May bibring na friend si ganito.. tapos yung buoung Lorenzo Ruiz Academy hindi darating kasi tumama sa exams (Pero anjan pa din si Daryl at Andrew! :P), some people from Metro e hindi din darating. Tapus yung mga CD promotion natin nagloloko pa! So it was a 50-50 projection on my part. But I was postive of a good outcome, but not like THIS!
So nung kinaumagahan, paggising ko, bumabagyo.. lakas ng hangin at ulan. Isip ko 'tsk, eto na naman'. Umalis kami ni Lawrence ng house mga 10.. mejo tumila yung ulan, pero along the way palakad sa church inabot kami at nabasa. In a sense na-dampen din yung spirit namin, kasi we're placed in a situation na hindi namin matakasan. Basam-basa kami, sapatos, pantalon, t-shirt... tapos wala pang dalang extra. Nakakadrain ng patience. I sang worship songs within myself. I was thinking about Jesus and how he calmed the storm and His other miracles because in Him all things are possible! But during those ordeal I felt God was saying, "I can cause the sky to rain that people would not come to the concert, but so that you may not glory on yourselves (human ability), you need to trust me, and watch what I WILL DO." Pagdating sa church, kasama namin si Mark & Richard, inaayos yung place tapos out of nowhere namatay lahat ng kuryente (parang overload pero hindi kasi wala naman maraming nakasaksak). So kinabahan na naman kami. Pero after calling pastor & bro juanito, naayos din namin yung kuryente and we're back... So by 4PM.. people started coming and the rest was history ika nga (More than 100 young people came!) And throughout and after the event, I pondered, this was not work of people, lest of individual persons, it was the work of the Lord. Ika nga we sow, "but God makes it grow."
Talagang nakaka-amaze si God ano? Sana maencourage po kau sa testi ko. Let's pray that this will be a start of greater things to come from God!
Came home 3 hours ago from band practice. This Saturday we're having an evangelistic concert at church. I'm singing in the first half. My bro sings in the second. The songs are almost ironed out. Can't wait 'til Sat. Everyone's excited! I miss playing in a band. I mean in a professional band like before minus the mishaps, just the music. I wanna form a CCM (Contemporary Christian Music) band. I want to express my musicality and jam with those who understand passion, musicality and craft. My musicality is in a stretcher. Perfectionist? A little. I believe what my Music & Worship professor shared during class. Our music should represent if not contain the MAJESTY of the King of Kings. Those are some serious words.
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